This is a
letter that you are writing to yourself. To always remember the self love
that you have found, and that you may always get back on track.
As I lay awake
in my bed tonight, my thoughts seem to wonder thru so many things.
But the one
that takes up so much space and time is my love affair with God. Sounds
strange you say, but that is what its like. I feel that this is the way
it should be. I am married first to God, then my husband.
Yet at the same time, I feel a sense of freedom that I have never
experienced before. All kinds of emotions that feel good for a change. It
is like a journey thru mountains. With all their peaks and valleys. Like
chapters in a book. Maybe I will write a book, probably not but I now know
I have a choice. That is the wonder of recovery, at least my own personal
one. The freedom to live my life happy, I do not mean all of the time, but
much of the time. I have also come to know that there is an end to my
feelings of sadness and my fears. Our
God gives me the courage to face my fears and I provide the strength. For
I now know that God only helps those who help themselves.
I could go on
for eternity about everything that my new life has shown me. It may a take
a lifetime, but heaven wouldnt be such an awful place to end up.
Thank you CoDA
Love and Prayers