Last night I attended my very first CoDA meeting after reading every book I could find and researching codependency ceaselessly. My codependency is undeniable. My relationships have become much healthier due to my understanding of codependency; however, I need tools. I need a community of people who feel the same way I do and understand my challenges. When I turned my microphone on in the meeting, all I could do was cry. The wave of emotions took me by complete surprise. I am so grateful for this community and cannot wait to see the healing it brings to myself and others in my life.
Last night, I had a dream about my first love and our dog. They both live happily, but my codependency drove a wedge between us. It caused me to push him away, project my fears onto him, and caused him a great deal of pain. I have apologized to him, but last night, that dream made me feel understood and forgiven. I know it was because I started my journey with CoDA. Thank you for providing this service; I am eternally grateful.
Sara F. 1/5/2022