This
is a letter that you are writing to yourself. To always remember the
self love that you have found, and that you may always get back on
track.

As I lay awake in my bed tonight, my thoughts seem to wonder thru so many things.

But
the one that takes up so much space and time is my love affair with
God. Sounds strange you say, but that is what it’s like. I feel that
this is the way it should be. I am married first to God, then my
husband. Yet at the same time, I feel a sense of freedom that I have
never experienced before. All kinds of emotions that feel good for a
change. It is like a journey thru mountains. With all their peaks and
valleys. Like chapters in a book. Maybe I will write a book, probably
not but I now know I have a choice. That is the wonder of recovery, at
least my own personal one. The freedom to live my life happy, I do not
mean all of the time, but much of the time. I have also come to know
that there is an end to my feelings of sadness and my fears. Our God
gives me the courage to face my fears and I provide the strength. For I
now know that God only helps those who help themselves.

I could
go on for eternity about everything that my new life has shown me. It
may a take a lifetime, but heaven wouldn’t be such an awful place to
end up.

Thank you CoDA

Love and Prayers