This is a non-negotiable,
this life of being awake.
Listening to the whisper of God,
above the notifications, calls, texts, praises.
Surrendering to the surrender.
How do I forgive myself?
Back up.
How do I become willing?
Back up.
I admit I am powerless over myself and others and turn my life and will over to God.
Please help me be ready.
Sometimes it hurts too much to be present. 
But I am finding forgiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness. 

Christina C – 9/8/17