Co-NNections Recovery Stories

I see – Sept 21, 2021

I see.

I see me.
I see my worth and value.
I see my excuses and my avoidance.
I see my innate goodness.
I see my denial and my control.
I see my strength and determination.
I see my obsession and my fear.
I see my guilt and “overreactive conscience” controlling my actions and dependence.
I see my budding power and divinity.
I see my ability to say “no” or “yes.”
I see my growth and progress.
I see me.
I finally see me.

I see you.
I see your value and worth.
I see your humanity – your mistakes and weaknesses mixed with compassion and hope.
I see that “it is what it is – without putting judgments on it.”
I see your trembling, your fear, and your shame.
I see your sparkling eyes and jovial smile.
I see your love that has been there all along.
I see your hard work and labor.
I see the little things and the big things.
I see your parts and your pieces.
I see your wishes and dreams.
I see you.
I finally see you.

I see God.
I see God’s Truth.
I see God’s work in me when I am honest and accountable.
I see God’s details.
I see God’s gifts.
I see God’s mercy.
I see God’s love.
I see God’s presence in my life.
I see God’s plan.
I see God’s promises.
I see God.
I finally see God.

An addendum to my poem as encouraged by my sponsor.
I see her – the Little Girl within.
I see her value and worth.
I see her humanity – her mistakes and weaknesses mixed with compassion and hope.
I see that “it is what it is – without putting judgments on it.”
I see her trembling, her fear, and her shame.
I see her sparkling eyes and jovial smile.
I see her love that has been there all along.
I see her hard work and labor.
I see the little things and the big things.
I see her parts and her pieces.
I see her wishes and dreams.
I see her.
I finally see her.

Audryn – 6/21/21