I’ve had a taste of recovery and yet I am reminded daily of how much work I have to do. Several months ago, I had fallen into a deep chasm of codependency. I was losing my self-esteem and I was incredibly desperate for that fix of validation or that sense of control I had being a caretaker.

For the first time, instead of running into the arms of a woman I became a part of this Fellowship. I listened to the stories of others and found commonality. I found a home and one that was more healthy than the home I grew up in. I was so fortunate to find my sponsor who was accessible, really good at keeping her own inventory, and was community focused. We’ve lost touch, but there isn’t a day I don’t remember that only my Higher Power has control. I need to let go of any illusions I have about self, be humble before God, and pay it forward. Tough reminders but I’m getting better…

04/04/2022