*This story was conceived on a road built of yellow bricks, alongside some remarkable characters
*For all those who are teaching me to face my fears and embrace my Super Powers, I am forever in your debt, thank you, you are my Angels
 
Chapter 1
 
I hope you don’t mind, I’m going to use you
What you gave me, what you couldn’t give to me
And everything in between
 
The laughter, care and attention
The anger, disappointment, and tears
I’ll use it all, every bit of it
To push me harder, deeper into myself
Until I know more completely WHO
Is at the core of my being
 
And when I am finally standing tall
In the presence of every fear, passion, desire and truth
Manifesting on my path
When I am free from that which has bound me
Then, I will trust myself enough to let go
 
But for now, I am going to use you
I hope you don’t mind
 
Chapter 2
 
Something is shifting
 
Through my own presence I am finding courage
To lay down, open my heart and feel into myself
 
There is much to explore
It has been here a long time
Waiting for me
Patiently
Faithfully
 
Chapter 3
 
This is new
 
I have begun ASKING for that
Which my heart most desires
Now I am RECEIVING
It is powerful, scary and amazing
 
I would like more of this
Please
 
Chapter 4
 
I feel grateful
 
To those capable of intimacy, vulnerability and connection
With my authentic self
The ones brave enough to reach out and touch me
I love when they dare to see me
To hear me
Listening with open hearts
 
Seeking truth, together we commit to removing the lies
That have grown roots in our dreams
Lies which used to keep us safe
But no longer serve us, or anyone
 
I am learning to love this game
 
Chapter 5
 
Reflecting
 
I was afraid to let go
I thought I needed you
I let myself believe you needed me
 
But something is happening
I am coming to see that one day 
You will ask your dreams to manifest
And finally know that which you have 
Searched for but failed yet to find
 
One day you will have ALL you wish for and MORE
When you decide you are ready
When the time is right
In this lifetime or the next
 
Something is saying to me:
"Believe in THIS with ALL your heart and LET GO, NOW!"
 
I am listening
 
Chapter 6
 
How badly I wanted to have, to BE the answers I thought you needed
But something shook me
It felt like Truth
I understand
 
I don’t have the right to interfere
So I pray, step back, take the role of witness to the unfolding
And I let go
Trusting that all you desire is coming to you
Wrapped in a perfection only the Universe 
Can fully understand and provide
 
I feel Peace
 
Chapter 7
 
Another message arrived today:
 
For me to see you become All That You Are
To see you have what is yours by Divine Right
I must first become THAT
I must ACCEPT the gifts I am being offered
 
I confess, I was afraid
I was distracting myself with fantasy
Illusions of what I could give you
But this is not about you, I see that now
 
It is about me
 
So, my focus changes
I decide
Commit
To discovering who and what 
My heart most deeply desires to be
 
I say "Yes" to BECOMING All That I Am
 
Chapter 8
 
Thank you
 
You gave me something to hold onto
Something worth trusting that I could believe in
 
But most importantly
You gave me back to my Self
 
For this and more, I Love you
 

Lena – 2-19-16