No Crosstalk

I can appreciate what you are going
through.  I suspect the Group Conscience has voted on a strict no-crosstalk
rule (no nodding, laughing, handing out of tissues, of course, no patting
another when there are tears).   I had a hard time initially with the
concept of being ’emotionless’ as well.   I found it very stifling at first,
but later, I grew into the notion of giving myself and another the emotional
headspace (by closing my own mouth and my raucous snorts) that fosters clear
thinking and feeling.  😉

Deep, profound healing can occur when
I emit to the spiritual void, namely because I can hear myself think/talk. 
When I can hear myself talk, I can focus on myself (my thinking and
feeling)– not anyone else’s thinking or feeling.  This provides me with
a cathartic experience unlike anything I receive in the ‘outside’ world, or
in my family of origin. 

Therefore, having peace in a meeting,
and no verbal response, can be a profoundly spiritual experience.  It’s like
having a GREAT LISTENER ready at hand.  That’s what the no crosstalk rule
does for me.  Gives me the mental and emotional space to, as we say in the
Format for Sharing at my meeting, ‘share without the concern of how others
think, feel, react, or respond.’    All to often, I’ve seen it otherwise–
people needing/wanting attention waiting for response to their joke, funny
anecdote, etc.  People always seem to want to get the laughs.   It then
becomes a dialogue (or one-person show) in which the focus is on relating
socially or entertaining, which, I personally, like to save for *after* the
meeting.  That’s when the real fun begins– FELLOWSHIPPING!    😉 

Alternately, if my group is laughing
at something I say or agreeing with an ‘mmm’ that resonates with them during
my share, it now annoys me, because then the supposed sacred space becomes
an implicit dialogue.  I am not talking to anyone, nor eliciting a
response– I am sharing to the spiritual void.   The deep silence from the
group gives me a feeling of being heard that I never received in my
childhood.

Ultimately, I and others are human,
and I/we in my meetings will from time to time guffaw, snort, spit,
etc….   but if the overall scene is one of still peace and quiet, I say
it’s a very respectful and healing way to treat myself and others.   Good
listening boundaries help me feel listened to and, consequently, loved. 
Nice bonus!!