Hope/full in CoDA

I’ve been on the ledge
of hope/less
and it’s a grand sight to those who are fearless.
I am not completely fearless or fear/less
but, for what I know hopeless is not entirely me.

This is because I still have hope things will work out,
I hope that in time
I will (slowly) make things better.
The /less part is that part that feels insurmountable.
The /less part of hope/less is the pain and regret
for making mistakes in the first place.

So I go on
because I don’t have to be on a ledge
(of feeling hope/less).
I need to walk away from where hope
is not found and,
keep moving to find what is lost
because if it’s not there– it’s not there.
What I need right now is to
fly blindly in the direction of hope
where a light shines and where people say “hello.”

Tess M 3/24/18