This is a poem I wrote when I decided I was ready to start working the STEPS.
What if today I started a new chapter? A new beginning.
What if I found myself with no one to fix?
What if I decided to take control over my life and not yours.
What if I realized my loneliness was because I didn’t feel needed anymore?
What if my heart, mind and soul finally admitted that I was truly codependent.
What if my heart was pounding now, really pounding.
What if I had allowed myself to accept the things I cannot change and realized that I will need the wisdom from my God to know the difference.
What if I didn’t have to be perfect?
What if I learned that I was in the right place at the right time. A place with people who have an understanding like I do.
What if I decided to work the steps, for me and no one else.
I am like a brand new colt. My legs are weak and wobbly.
My desire to stand is strong and hopeful. I think I’m going to try it.
Yes, it’s time to invest in me this time, I am ready to stand.
Jan R 6/16/21